My former dear fellow sufferer,
Yes, you have read well. „Former fellow sufferer“.
„Why“? It’s very easy to explain it.
Because I said „Fuck you“. I still HaveNoMoney(dot)Com.
Ohhhh, no. Not to you.
I didn’t mean you.
At least I didn’t mean you only.
It’s very hard to speak out, but I also said „fuck you“ to all my money.
The point is, that two weeks ago I took some drugs. Suddenly I noticed the presence of god, noticed the voice of god.
And I thought „Oh man, that’s a great possibility to talk about the important things of life“
So I said to god: „What the …… what the fuck …….. is wrong with you ….. man.“
I went on with: „I HaveNoMoney(god) ….. ohhhm I HaveNoMoney(dot)Com god“.
„Where are you all the time“?
God answered to me: „Julian Be Rich don’t want to be rich any more“.
It was such a wonderful feeling. It touched me in such a emotional way, I can’t tell.
So replied: „What the hell is goin on“?
God said:“No, Julian Be Rich. It’s still heaven. Proofe it and give away all you money“.
So I decided to proof it to god. And I decided to give away all the money I had.
Then I walked through the city, having all the money with me. Willing to give it away. Willing to give all away.
And suddenly I saw him. It was a poor beggar kneeing on the street. Begging for money.
Yes, he has been chosen by me. So I went to him, taking out my leather purse.
I opened it, put out everything i had. It was really everything I had. I was seeing my own hand reaching out for his hand, giving him all the money.
An I said: „Man, you have been chosen“
„This Five Dollars are for you! Use it wisely my friend. Use it wisely“.
Suddenly the beggar stood up an shouted: „My ass!“ „You fuckin‘ peace of shit“.
I replied: „No, not me“ „You are talking about god“. Then I ran 🙂
One hour later I was at home again. In this moment I didn’t know, what was right, what was wrong.
Doing something that is right and in the end it’s wrong. I noticed for the first time, that it’s not good being good all the time. Same story with my former girlfriend. I was soo very good to her. Showed her all my love all the time. But she couldn’t deal with it.
I was very confused that evening.
And I am still confused.
What the fuck was going on.
I go to bed.